Early this year, I sobbed alone in my apartment as if someone had died. I had just dropped my boyfriend off at the airport, so he could go back to California and visit his family for a month while studying for the Guam bar exam. This was the first time I truly felt alone in… Read More My journey with depression
I’ve been going through a really low point in my self-esteem over the past week. About a week ago, I popped a pimple on my chin and kept picking at it until it turned into a dark scar (I’ve watched too many Dr. Pimple Popper videos and tried to be a hero with my comedone… Read More How my low self-esteem is ruining my life
At the beginning of 2017, my goal was to say yes to new things. I traveled to Bali alone (my first solo foreign trip), where I had a romantic honeymoon all to myself. I took a trip to Thailand with a group of my childhood friends, where we played with elephants, got matching tattoos, and… Read More 2018 goals
Getting dressed has become such an ordeal lately. I moved back to Guam with just one suitcase with all my belongings (clothes, shoes, and books included), but I’ve bought a few tops and bottoms over the past year. Since last September, I’ve gained at least 10 pounds. I probably lost 10 pounds of muscle and… Read More Taking control over my eating disorder
In some ways, summer is my least favorite time of the year. Most people love the freedom to do whatever they want, but when I have too much free time I get bored. And when I get bored, I get stalker-y. For most of this summer (truthfully, for most of the time since I downloaded… Read More How I Survived 10 Days Without Instagram
Seven months ago, I had to pack all my clothes before I made the trip from San Francisco back to Santa Barbara for the beginning of the school year. I spent several hours sorting my clothes into piles, packing them into my suitcase, and trying to fit everything in. After re-packing my suitcase several times, I… Read More How I Survived 6 Months Without Shopping
I know I’ve read before about Sophia Bush boycotting Urban Outfitters because they released a shirt that says “Eat Less,” which encourages eating disorders, and there are some articles about it circulating on my Facebook newsfeed. I wholeheartedly agree that the message on that shirt is obviously horrible and problematic; I agree that the company… Read More Zero IS a Size